Williams discusses energy plans during brief stop in Marshall

Williams discusses energy plans during brief stop in Marshall

It is amazing to me -- actually, it shouldn't be, I guess! -- how resources jump at me once I have declared interest in a subject. Just yesterday I had determined that alternative energy would be my main emphasis for activism. Last night, the Science Channel had a show about energy sources called "Eco-Tech." Today I open the newspaper's webpage and find this story! Awesome!

end of the rope?

Not sure, but it feels pretty close. Not many knots left on this one.

Personality Test Again

Advanced Global Personality Test Results Extraversion |||||||||| 38% Stability |||| 18% Orderliness |||||||||| 34% Accommodation |||||| 30% Interdependence |||||||||||||| 56% Intellectual |||||||||||||||||||| 86% Mystical |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Artistic |||||||||||||||| 70% Religious |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Hedonism |||| 16% Materialism |||| 16% Narcissism |||||| 23% Adventurousness || 10% Work ethic |||||| 23% Humanitarian |||||||||||||||||| 76% Conflict seeking |||||||||||||| 56% Need to dominate |||||| 30% Romantic |||||| 23% Avoidant |||||||||||||||| 63% Anti-authority |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Wealth || 10% Dependency |||||||||||||||||| 76% Change averse |||||||||||||||| 63% Cautiousness |||||| 23% Individuality |||||||||||||| 56% Sexuality |||||||||||||||| 63% Peter pan complex |||||||||||||||| 63% Family drive |||||||||||| 50% Physical Fitness |||||| % Histrionic |||||||||||||||||| 76% Paranoia |||||||||||||||||| 76% Vanity |||||||||| 36% Honor |||||| 23% Thriftiness |||||| 23%

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Stability results were low which suggests you are very worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.

Extraversion results were moderately low which suggests you are reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.

trait snapshot:
messy, depressed, introverted, feels invisible, does not make friends easily, nihilistic, reveals little about self, fragile, dark, bizarre, feels undesirable, dislikes leadership, reclusive, weird, irritable, frequently second guesses self, unassertive, unsympathetic, low self control, observer, worrying, phobic, suspicious, unproductive, avoidant, negative, bad at saving money, emotionally sensitive, does not like to stand out, dislikes large parties, submissive, daydreamer

Am I fooling myself?

Sometimes I think I am much sicker (mentally) than I or anyone else thinks I am. Other times I feel confident that there is very little wrong with me at all. What is real? Is there a "real"? Perhaps they are both real, it's just two different perspectives on the same data -- namely my daily thoughts, actions, and experiences.

Quote of the Day

"I am in a state of elusion (spelling intentional), limbo, on the cusp , precariously balanced between light and cold and dusk and stars and passion and hot and dark and moon and daytime and indifference.

The road ahead of me is a simple ordinary labyrinth designed by the twisted keepers of the darkest recesses of my mind.

And who'd of thought tomorrow could be so strange? My loss."

Things have changed

Advanced Global Personality Test Results Extraversion |||||||||| 40% Stability |||||| 30% Orderliness |||| 16% Accommodation |||||| 30% Interdependence |||||||||||||||| 63% Intellectual |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Mystical |||||||||||||||||| 76% Artistic |||||||||||||||| 70% Religious |||||||||||||||||| 76% Hedonism |||||| 30% Materialism |||||| 23% Narcissism |||||| 30% Adventurousness |||||||||||| 50% Work ethic || 10% Self absorbed |||||||||||||||||| 76% Conflict seeking |||||||||||| 50% Need to dominate |||||||||||| 50% Romantic |||||||||| 36% Avoidant |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Anti-authority |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Wealth || 10% Dependency |||||||||||||| 56% Change averse |||||||||| 36% Cautiousness |||||||||||||| 56% Individuality |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Sexuality |||||||||||||||| 63% Peter pan complex |||||||||||||||| 70% Physical security |||||||||||| 50% Physical Fitness || 10% Histrionic |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Paranoia |||||||||||||||| 70% Vanity |||||||||||||| 56% Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||| 70% Indie |||||||||||| 50%

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The Edge

I stand on the edge of the precipice, only a centimeter from certain death.

How did I get here? The last time I looked, I was at a party. It was a very pleasant party. I was having a lot of fun. There were many intriguing people there. And the band was playing great music.

Now all I hear is the keening of the wind as it blows through my body, slowly freezing my heart and numbing my mind. No one else is here. There is no light except the dim moonlight reflected on the snow. Even the moon is shadowed; the Lunar Goddess has been betrayed.

I betrayed her.

I shift my weight to the balls of my feet, closing my eyes and imagining the sensation of falling. I feel no fear, just a gentle sadness. No, that's not true. I'm not really sad, just resigned. For the first time in my life, everything seems right. All is in place. Just one more thing to do.

Without hesitation, I spread my arms and lean forward.

Better luck next time.